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Friday, November 06, 2009

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 09:14:09 GMT

school is officially over :)
PW DOESNT COUNT. (when i say it doesnt, it just doesnt ok)

marcusss in a superman costume!!! hilarious.

here's my holiday plan:
1. sign up for SATs
2. STUDY for SATs
3. frisbee (with lyc!! or pw peeps!- brian & dewi i know you read this, so one of you better teach me a forehand)
4. sleep at least 12 hours a day (12 hours of sleep a day, eyebags will go away!!)
5. acff
6. birthdayyyyyy
7. china(?!) and resort holiday (!!)
8. MONTE CRISTO HOW CAN I FORGET
9. catch up with my friends (abby's coming back!!)
10. HAPPY TIME ^^

ok im sure there's more... but i forget.
just got back from pee-double eww and frisbee in school. dewi was super owning during pw again. whats new

am i shallow?

Sat, 31 Oct 2009 10:32:45 GMT

happy halloweenie.. im stuck at home procrastinating all my work because im simply too tired and lazy. i would go on and on about how sucky my life with chinese and pw is... but i shall not. because there are people out there who are suffering much more than me and who am i to complain? thats besides the point. the highlight of my day, sadly, was scouring through the acsian gmail and succesfully finding the castlist (yes!!) without virtually trampling/accidentally deleting anything else. pheww. but this also means i have to complete the afterparty tickets (acff!! supperclub!! on my birthday morning!!) AND the cmc programme AND attempt to read more chinese words... i woke up early in the morning, found my parentals have abandoned me for malaysia massage, till now im still left to my own resources and i'll probably cook some maggi mee for dinner because single childs are pathetic like that. and as i type this its raining like a mad cow outside. all you trick-or-treating people HAVE FUN SLOSHING IN YOUR COSTUMES. somehow staying at home by yourself has this peaceful quality to it :)

i will follow you into the dark

ok back to my point. am i shallow? sometimes i wonder if i am. if im actually socially/emotionally adequate enough. yesterday i met nat and we had a good almost-4-hour talk at starbucks/da paolo and i liked it alot. sometimes you feel like your mouth is dry and its exhausting to speak to people you hardly care about or they hardly care about you, but with nat there's just too much catching up to do. i mean srsly, you just need a few (or ten or so) friends like these and you can go a long way in life. then she was talking about this book called Her Fearful Symmetry and i realized, i never read such books. i dont mean to say they bore me, because im sure they wouldnt, but i just never made the effort to read them or be aware of them. possibly the most 'cheem' and philosophical (literally) book i've read is Sophie's World. and i love the book Stargirl and sarah dessen books for its complete utter simplicity. there was once jecolia and i went to borders and bought v v v intellectual books like homer's Odyssey and Shakespeare's Much Ado About Nothing and the epic poem Paradise Lost. i haven't finished reading any of them. my idea of a 'scary book' is pretty little liars. its not even pure horror or anything. on the plus side, i find gossip girl completely trashy (truthfully, im getting reluctant on watching the tv show too) ok but nvm basically, can i measure my (superficiality or) depth by my intellect? then everyone will think im some huge bimbo (which im definitely not, i can do math) but yet theres this part of me that thinks, really... who am i. am i shallow or what. because i admit i can never truly love someone with a third eye, stuff like that... you get my point. sometimes i feel in every different group i hang out with, im another person to them. there are so many sides to me so much so that i feel like a chameleon. im not boring, im not extremely fun either. im not stupid, but im not a genius. im just in-between. then again i might just be very adaptable. in p4 my leadership camp group was 'adaptability' whoo~ guess that just stuck on with me for the REST OF MY LIFE.

argh. that was a horribly depressing topic!!

ok so on this lonely saturday night... im waiting to win a bet against ryan. its based on the three-day rule. heard of it? if you want to learn more just ask me next time or smth. as far as im concerned, THERE IS NO SUCH THREE DAY RULE. only the 5-second rule.. which everyone knows of. then i realized making bets its all about the strategy. for example, say, i always bet with swee about chelsea and arsenal. and sometimes i unexpectedly lose. so the point is, to bet AGAINST the thing you're rooting for (say, chelsea loses!!) , so if you lose the bet (ie chelsea wins, yay), you're still HAPPY even if your money $$ flies away. if you win your bet (ie chelsea loses, which will never happen), you get money which somewhat compensates for your emotional loss. HAHAHA. but it makes sense, really!! but only if its a difficult bet, with super difficult wager or smth. im testing out the bet strategy today... ryan is so confident in his bet (but im like 'ryan?! how can you have so much faith in a person you do not even know?!'... long story) but im deffo gonna win. but i kinda want to lose, really badly. hah this is what i call a win-win situation.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JECOLIA TONG :) saturday was awesome i had tons of fun and your actual birthday was even funner <3 everyone pls go to my facebook and watch 'best friends remake 2'. if you're retarded and have a funny brain you'll completely understand it and laugh your face off. we are just shameless like that :P

look at my horrendous sunburn!!! :( ac games...
which reminds me i hope it doesnt rain tmr, a-b-c-d pw group is meeting for pw, hardcore chinese (i need it) and another round of frisbeeee. frisbee is insanely addictive and my throwing is getting much better!! if only i had time to join ac ulti frisbee. they probably wouldnt want me anyway, i cant run for nuts.

this morning when i was ATTEMPTING to do some chinese MCQs (but failed.. i ended up staring into space) i ended up making this outrageously random list of things in an awesome guy...
he must:
1. abide to the bro code. not the sexual ones though (refer to himym)
2. read widely but not a nerd
3. play a sport well
4. musically inclined
5. listen to good music but still can appreciate electro/rnb
6. charming wit
7. does not abide to the 3 day rule (hence, spontaneous)
8. abide to the 5-second rule (hygiene, please)
9. have chosen cyndaquil/charmander has his starting pokemon
10. knows how to smile
11. have a good appetite but yet remain fit
12. can tolerate my nonsense
13. have awesome obliques (hurhur here comes shallow me)
14. have IQ and EQ and streetsmart
15. be not egoistic/arrogant, aka humble
16. believe in serendipity to a certain extent
17. can understand the f-language
18. unbelievably cool in his own way
19. can be independent (ie can sit alone in the school voiddeck for hours HAHAHA jk)
20. be not afraid of insects, nice arms and not sluggish.

HAH. i might as well have described God.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 02:53:10 GMT

my throat is dying
my face is burnt
my skin is peeling
my bones are aching

( i think if i had more of those, it would be a poem already)
anyway, rushing acff posters, compiling oral presentation, printing i&r, reading chinese... mondays are such a bore :( town later with jools/chuan/jessmurray/shuyin/danielle/nicole!!/swee/shaun. what a weirdly bunch. like invasion of the pats sch house gang but ah well we are karaoke-ing!! interestinggg.

ahhh im really broke now :(
and broken

NICKY'S BACK :)

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 14:08:24 GMT

Nicole Ng is back!!!! Just had to mention. yknow, in case someone who knows nicole ng doesn't know she's back from the uk. but its so fail, she comes back and then chelsea loses 2-1 to aston villa. we are both mourning now. me mostly mourning over the fact that i have to treat swee to dinner because i actually betted with him. im just hoping arsenal gets a miracle LOSS. because im really broke for the entire month - my $$$ just flew away :( now i wished i made a slapbet instead zzz (and lulz, http://www.itwasthebestnightever.com/, they mention CREME BRULEE!!!)

cousin!!

Anyway Im aching like a mad cow today. like srsly, EVERY WHERE HURTS LIKE MAD. can't even move or sit down properly... its a long story which i hate repeating but its partly due to ac games but its quite worth it i guess? ac games was rather fun but i wished the class was more pro-active. i know i used to sing praises about my class all the time but sometimes, i guess i can't. because i really dont like disappointing the people who really want to win a certain game or give their all for a particular sport they really enjoy, and i guess in the end we didnt reach the top and its really nobody's direct fault and its just a game but sometimes i feel bad. ok im rambling. i dont know if im angry or peeved or sad but i think im just very confused... i think im quite an idealist at times. like i feel bad if i go against my morals/principles and i swear, this is gonna be the downfall of me. like i just push myself to fulfil my problems AND IN THIS MODERN WORLD, I WILL NEVER WIN. and thus i end up with my ankle taped up and a totally dead body. aka corpse.

perfect 10 day <3 sadly not the entire 10 could make it but it was still fun nonetheless :) ilu guys many many x 10000 only you guys can really tank my retardedness and spasmz

ok i guess i shall try to do my pw.... i mean im at home on saturday night /: due to the fact that i cant move. happy deepavali, indian kids ^^

ahh maybe i'll just watch how i met your mother!!!

Friday, October 09, 2009

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 14:54:49 GMT

OK Hi. im back home from town, omg i feel quite liberated from all the exams!!! minus chinese, of course, thats on monday but i'll just cram some amazing chinese proverbs on sunday night... anyway. caught 'fame' today, during the movie toto, melo, xiaoyi and i were just ooh-ing and aah-ing over the dance moves and music but after a while... i realized it wasn't THAT great. ah well tmr's perfect-ten day, 10/10!! watching 500 days of summer, hope thats good. i wished i watched g-force when it was still running. i sang 'jump' the entire afternoon/night today till melo and xy literally ran away from me hahaha. spent all my moolah$$ on sat prep book(ikr), fables (nat!!), percy pigs, rubbish food... i love it. like srsly the feeling of freedom is the sweetest. but i realized despite promos being (almost) over, there's so much more things to do...
1. CHINESE A LVLS
2. PW A LVLS
3. COUNT OF MONTE CRISTO (everyone pls buy tickets from me!! 26,27,28 nov)
4. ACFF
5. SATS
... and it goes on till january. then school starts again with even more acsian theatre. just a list to see my horribly packed life. i mean, i could have been born in america, brazil, anywhere, and now smoking weed and sniffing glue till no end and no one's gonna stop me BUT my future will be screwed... then i'll never be able to buy the things i want. so materialistic/superficial, eh? :( btw today we saw this crazy girl with a skirt thats super short and even her louboutins didn't do her any justice. the skirt was skimming her ass i swear.
the past month has been... eventful. like sometimes i feel pressured by the people around me saying they are 'stressed' and stuff (it doesn't help, srsly) and there's so many things going on... sometimes im thankful every saturday i go to seminar room 1 @ the cpa to study with the rest of comm., discussing econs questions with yiren (aka econs god) (i think i just might get an A for econs thanks to him), jewing on andrew's/ken's audiotechnica headphones, eating bon'jour chocolate chip bread, hugging everyone because we're all so loveable, everything!! i hope we do this next year again :) which reminds me. i think im getting in-ear earphones from this funny random obscure shop at adelphi... james recommended it and my dad used to go there so i might as well go and have a look! maybe tomorrow or sunday. on tuesday i think its movie marathon (bring it on 5- yes there IS a bring it on number five, wizards of waverly place movie, proposal, mean girls... trashy movies etc!!) and then wednesday its back to pw life sucks. meh. anyway its almost midnight im quite tired and this is just some random post to prove that im alive and i just reminded julia to bring all the haribo she bought from germany so that we can have a feast during the movie!!
all my love, xx

PROMOS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 03:36:29 GMT

well, minus chinese on monday of course.
and pw/chinese a lvls in three weeks time.

bleeeaaaaghhhhhhh ok im gonna head out now.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Sun, 20 Sep 2009 03:53:26 GMT

sigh, i have so much things to write here and so many things to say to so many different people but im buried under my books and when i open the 'xanga-weblog entry' page all the thoughts jsut disappear :(
im gonna change my layout maybe that shall inspire me to blog. but for now i tweet everyday. twitter.com/cassiyang

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 12:04:18 GMT

You know something is wrong with you when after 5 days of being sick at home, doing absolutely nothing,

1. you stare at your chem notes blankly
2. you still sleep 15 hours a day
3. you haven't called your best friend in a week
4. your work is piling up
5. time isn't slowing down
6. you go online to ask very unlikely people for help in chem test
7. which, did i forget to mention, is 20% of the total grade?
8. and i havent passed a single chem test this year?
9. you start considering retaining
10. I CANT STUDY.

ok its saturday 9.03pm, i have less than 5 weeks till promos which means i HAVE TO BE on a freakin' ROLL whether I like it or not, fuck this shit im gonna mug like a dog NAO

LIFE IS GOOD.

Fri, 07 Aug 2009 13:53:05 GMT

No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you

( I won't always love what I'll never have, I won't always live in my regrets )

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 10:10:16 GMT

So how did you get here under my skin
I swore that I'd never let you back in